I woke this morning from an interesting dream. There is no way I can paint the emotional backdrop of this dream appropriately. There is also no way it will make sense in the way my heart experienced it. That makes the dream sound profound and epic and perhaps sets the bar higher than I intend.
It was a pastoral scene. Rolling hills, ponds and trees held a picnic and relay like competition. I was on a team with my husband, Vince and Sarah. I felt the pressure in my chest that often accompanies the competitive spirit roaring to life. (Even now the dream fades from my memory and so I can't remember all the tasks) The competition required running to stations and puzzle solving, just the kind of thing our group of four excels at.
The problem was this, I knew I was dying. I had tried to prepare my husband. I had tried to prepare and plan so that they wouldn't have to worry about anything when I died. I made sure to take all my clothes so that the sight of them wouldn't make him sad.
An attendant came during the last challenge and told me that the plane was ready to go. I got the impression that everyone knew I was dying, even my team, and we just hoped to have enough time to finish the competition. Someone had made arrangements for me to hitch a ride on a transport plane and it couldn't wait any longer so I had to leave my team.
Weirdness of the dream aside, as I got on the plane I had one burning motivation. I needed to finish preparing for my death by cleaning and purging the house. I needed to make sure that I would be seen and remembered with a clean house, free of care. A workman approved. A Proverbs 31 woman.
I woke with the certainty that I needed to clean the house. Deeply, well and with diligence.
Dreams are interesting indeed.
The truth is I should be living each day as if it were my last. I should be cleaning my house as if I will have a guest any second and as if the greatest honor I could do my husband was to care for his home with perfection. I don't know if the first day of spring mixed with my guilt and was nudged by Biblical principles to send me a dream that would motivate me to action but spring clean fever has well and truly struck.